The Arts of Sentiment

I'm on a roll tonight.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010 // 2:59 AM

It's 3 in the morning. I keep ranting. My thoughts are rattling inside my head and they need to be contained. So I just gotta say I love my best guy friend at the moment. He's such a great person and I wish him all the best in life and truly say that from the bottom of my heart. He's currently sleeping on my bed knocked out like a baby. Muaha I stuck a pencil up on his nose but he didn't budge. I really need to get back to studying I have a final tomorrow but I can't concentrate.

Another post is coming soon. I feel it.

While on the topic of annoyance ..

// 2:53 AM

This other stupid boy makes me angry. Well not angry but highly annoyed. Clearly what we have, what we're doing, whatever this is .. is a joke. I just wished that I knew I joke was being played so I could have laughed at it because I don't find this funny. Ignoring texts. Maybe you're not a texter. Cool. Got that. I call you. Ignore that too. Cool also. Because next time I see you, I can just ignore you like how you ignore me. On multiple occasions. I try, I really do. And the point is a try because I like you but obviously you don't give a fuck and guess neither do I. I've come to the conclusion that this a waste of my time. You can't make people do what they don't wanna do. You can make time for people you see all the time but I see every so often and you live down the street from me. WE GO TO THE SAME DAMN SCHOOL! But it's all good. Another lesson learned: People make time for what they wanna make time for.

Ladies you feel me on this?

Annoyed.

// 2:44 AM

What he said wasn't even that serious at all. But that shit pissed me off. Talking about go check yourself. Obviously I can't check if I don't FACEBOOK stupid ass boy. Then he wanna get smart. Sit your short ass down. Stupid ass nigga.

I just need a moment of SILENCE.

Sunday, December 5, 2010 // 11:07 PM

But right now I'm about to vent. Well not necessarily vent but I need to get me feelings out there. All of them. No one reads this blog no more since I switched over to Tumblr. I feel like this blog is still my chance to write down my thoughts freely. Shall I proceed?

I am happy. I am sad. Quite the paradox isn't it. But there is days when I feel like no matter what anyone does I'm on this natural high. And I dare you to ruin my high. But then there are days when I don't feel like getting up. Everything bothers me. Everyone. People constantly complaining, "Oh my life sucks. I hate this school. I'm so fucking bored. What the hell is everyone looking at? Everyone is attacking me." And that moment I feel like screaming, "FUCK YOU. GET THE FUCK OVER YOURSELVES." A snapback to reality and I realize that is not a good idea. So that line just hovers over my head like a dark cloud waiting to erupt rain on that one person that doesn't have an umbrella. The person who is unprepared. And I feel that one day I just might say that line and I will be unprepared. Unprepared for the consequences. So rather I make a conscious effort to keep my thoughts to myself and only myself. Because at the end of the day all I really have is myself. And as the days go by I'm really starting to see that prove true.

At the same time don't get me wrong. I love my friends. Not everyone deserves that title though. Some people I will call an acquaintance. I thought you were a friend but your words and actions prove otherwise. Not to toot my own horn but I've been a very good friend to everyone. Oh and I mean everyone. If I haven't I apologize and I'm sorry. When I say I care about you, I truly and genuinely mean that. Not everyone is a good friend to me. And that's okay. Part of me still remain their friend because I feel like I can help them or rather encourage them to become a better person. I'm not saying I'm the most perfect person because I'm far from but I like to help people. I want people to realize their true potential. That statement is quite hypocritical in the fact that I tear myself down and criticize myself so harshly its not even funny. But more on that later. I guess the reason why I try to be a good friend to everyone or people I care about is because I would hope when I'm going my problems that they would be there to help me out and tell me what I need to hear. I'm not sure my theory is really working but I'm still testing it out.

I'm transferring out of Temple. They really fucked me over with the Financial Aid. And there is no hope of me staying. It's slim to none. I really hope the Lord blesses me in staying but right now it's looking very hard. But I trust that he will help me out because nothing is impossible for him. I don't wanna leave the friends I've made here. Yeah I can make friends at other schools but I've learned to love this school. I hated it at first. If you told me transfer I would've in a heartbeat. But now things are different. I would hate to go.

Complete sidebar: But those damn bitches I call roommates need to shut the fuck up before I call my friends here to beat that ass.

Moving on.

I'm truly a hopeless, well I wouldn't say hopeless but I'm a romantic. A big one. Those corny, cheesy shit. I love it all. Well maybe not all but I like the cute, simple things. But I don't feel that way with everyone though. People I really really really like I want them to put in the work and the effort. I'm still waiting but I got time to wait. No rush. It shall come naturally. Everything has come naturally and I guess this will too. In due time.

That's all the venting I have for now. I shall be back later.

Coco and Breezy

Friday, July 23, 2010 // 1:39 PM

So these girls are FIYAHHH! They are 19 year old sisters trying to make a name for themselves in this industry. They already have a celebrity clientele building and their sunglasses are seen all over the red carpet. Peep the website!

http://www.cocoandbreezy.com/

Inception.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010 // 1:10 PM

First of all let me start off by saying that was the greatest movie I have seen in a long time. Lordy lord. It was so good. Definitely a movie for the complex thinker like myself. If you are easily confused don't see the movie or see on bootleg so you can ask as many questions as you want during the movie. Ha. But besides all that I really must meet Christopher Nolan. This man is truly a genius. I wish he perform Inception in my mind and plant an idea in my mind that was even half as good as this movie. From top to finish, amazing.

What I really wanna talk about is the ending. OMG. As soon as it ended there was already multiple theories forming in my head. I mean the movie ended in a way that would be left open to interpretation but I have a few of my own.

First ending: When he gets home, it wasn't a dream. He was able to complete the task, get cleared and go home to see his children.

Second ending: He is still in limbo. He's still dreaming. Note in the scene when everyone wakes up from the kick, he was the only one that didn't wake up. He was still in limbo to get Seito therefore meaning when he gets home and sees his kids he has accepted that as his reality.

There are also other factors to consider such as when he didn't wake up from the kick, the totem not being his it was Mal's, his totem could potentially be his children's faces, him being in limbo.

Ahhh as you tell Christopher Nolan has also worked his own of Inception by planting an idea in our heads. Obviously we aren't going to go kill ourselves, go snowboarding down fotress or be able to reconstruct dreams as we know it. But that would be fucking sick.

I just realized that all this "he" I'm referring to is Leonardo DiCaprio or should I say Cobb (in the movie). If you watched it then you would have caught on :)

Tumblr

Tuesday, July 6, 2010 // 7:34 PM

I'm thinking of moving this blog to tumblr. Yes, no?
I need ideas to reinvent my blog. I really like the layout of their blogs and stuff.